Lately, I have found myself just not wanting to try. It comes with the winter months, when it’s dark outside before I even get to leave work. After my long drive home, all I want to do is order a pizza and binge Breaking Bad until I fall asleep.
In college, I would do the same thing. Creating habits out of doing nothing productive with my free time. But back then, little did I know, I had more free time than I ever would again. Managing time when all you want to do is nap is a struggle. When I first started working a full-time job, I excused my laziness as being “content” with where I was. I had a job, good friends, good boyfriend, and was completely okay with doing nothing to improve “me.”
I wasn’t content. There are so many things I want to do. This blog, for instance, is NO WHERE near where I would want for it to be. My goal, long-term, is to be a writer and a blogger. To be able to do what I love all the time, no ties to any location or waiting to get paid time off to go and see things. I want to travel, I want to make things, learn new skills, and just experience every ounce this life has to offer. None of these things can happen while confusing contentment with laziness.
The truth is, we should never be fully content with where we are. We should always be working on ourselves, on skills, on being a better human during our short time here. So, for 2018, instead of going home and slothing around the house, I’m going to work. Blog. Write. Learn HTML. Learn Spanish. Make things. Create/further my business. Cook my meals. Get outside (as soon as this record-breaking cold weather gets out of here).
I never want to be stagnant. I don’t want to be still. I don’t want to look back on this life and think “Wow, I wasted so much time doing absolutely nothing.”