Don’t get me wrong, I adore children. I have always wanted kids. But I don’t want kids right now.
When I was in my early years of college, I wanted to be married and have my first child by the time I was 25. I’m 24 and my birthday is in January, so I’ll let you do the math there. Story short: that ain’t happenin’.
So instead, since I’m behind on where 18-year-old me thought I should be by now, I’m going to share all of the goals I have and things I want to do before I’m responsible for keeping a little human alive.
1. Get married. Okay, so this one was probably obvious. But, I want to enjoy being married and learn how to live with someone else before I bring a child into the equation. I’m an only child brought up in a loving but strange family structure. I have no idea how to share literally everything. I want to take the time to build a strong foundation on which I raise a child to love the Lord.
2. Go to Disney. I’ve been to Magic Kingdom for one whole day, and only remember bits and pieces of it. I want to go and make sure I can survive it before, again, having to keep a tiny human safe and alive in such a place. Plus, I’m a kid at heart so why not?
3. Pay off my car and my student loans. I’m blessed with a mom who believed that my college education was her responsibility so that I wouldn’t have to stress over the money, but now I have a job and want to be able to help. Kids are also hella expensive and I want to be as financially stable as possible before that happens.
4. Sleep. This one should speak for itself.
5. Go to Europe. Or Australia. Or Mexico. Or anywhere new. I want to see the world and have stories to tell my kids like my daddy had told me.
6. And finally, I want to work on being the best “me” I can be. I want a strong relationship with God, a strong sense of who I am, and a strong trust in myself to be able to take on that kind of responsibility.
The whole point of this is that, sometimes, God has different plans than we may. My parents were older when I was born and I’ve always wanted to be a younger mom. But, my plans are not always the right ones. And looking back, I couldn’t imagine being ready now. He has a plan for my life and is allowing me to grow in so many ways I would have never imagined possible.
God’s path is always the right one, whether it be about college, kids, relationships, or your Friday night plans. Just be patient and present and have trust. Be aware and constantly working towards growth.
Besides, the plans we make rarely ever go as we want, but isn’t the journey beautiful, anyway?