I’m journaling my way through Sophie Hudson’s “All in All Journaling Devotional” and you guys, day three just hit me like a train.
It discusses comparison, calling it a “never-ending, pointless competition that no one ever wins.” I spend a lot of time criticizing myself. If only I were prettier, smarter, funner, more ambitious, more adventurous, less boring, and so on. I also think I am “too much.” Too whiny, too dramatic, too demanding. Why? Because I let a boy tell me so. I let one person dictate how I have lived out the past 6 years of my life. I put other people’s visions of me over how God looks at me.
First Samuel 16:17 says “But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.'”
But, God created me. He formed me in my mother’s womb with my hair, my eyes, my body, and my mind. My acne scars, stretch marks, flat, straight hair, all make me “me.”
Though you can always be better and can always improve, who you are at your core is from the Lord. Take what He has given you, and run with it. Be too much. Be unapologetically who you were created to be.
Now, I can see an issue with this mindset. “If God created me as I am, then why should I try and be better?” Because walking with Christ means improving yourself. It means facing your demons and becoming better than you were yesterday. Take your talents and use them to worship the Lord. Don’t have any talents? You’re alive, aren’t you? Worship Him anyway.