Fresh out of college, the entire world at my feet. All I have to do is walk through the door. It’s open, waiting, full of opportunity and promise. But I stand, stuck, afraid to put one foot in front of the other. Afraid of not being good enough.
For five and a half years, all I wanted was to graduate, get married, and start my family. Five and a half years later, I realize that the latter two take money and stability. So, as a recent college grad ready to get my life together, I will admit, my life is nowhere near “together.” If I get through day without crying, I consider it a good day. I dreamed that the day I got my diploma, life would fall into place and be easy. Oh if I could go back and tell young Mar how idiotic that idea was. Graduation is not a magical moment that gently drops you into adulthood. It tosses you out on the curb with nothing but the clothes on your back and five bucks. And let’s not even start on trying to find a job. That’s a different story for a different day.
You’re probably wondering why I’m babbling on to you about my problems, and that’s because I know I’m not the only recent grad experiencing some sort of post-college depression. You’re not alone. Though it may feel like you’re running on a treadmill with a carrot dangled in front of your face, you are okay. You are enough. You matter, you are loved, and you are going to be great.
That was my turning point, recently. My boyfriend, who is my best friend and my rock, said three simple words to me (that one of his students said to him). “Be great today.” Not tomorrow, not next week, not next year. Right now. Today. 15 short minutes is all it takes to become greater than you were yesterday. Use this time of lost-ness to learn and master skills, establish yourself, and become someone that is great. Though you may feel like nothing you are doing is right, keep doing it. Keeping working every single dang day to be GREAT.
Don’t worry about being good enough, as long as you are investing time into making yourself great.
I want to be a person that my parents are proud of, and I want to grow into a person that my future children look up to. I can’t do that sitting idle during every ounce of my free time.
So to all of you college grads stuck in a limbo between college life and adulthood…
Get up. Get out. Be great.